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Isaac Ambrose Part 2

Puritan contemplative
In a “contemplative biography” Schwanda helpfully examines extant diary entries. He quotes a stand out experience
May 20, 1641. (pm) The Lord in his mercy poured into my soul the ravishing joy of his blessed Spirit. O how sweet was the Lord unto me? I never felt such a lovely taste of heaven before: I believed this was the joyful sound, the kisses of his mouth, the sweetnesses of Christ, the joy of his Spirit, the new wine of his kingdom; it continued with me about two days.
Schwanda notes “a number of significant themes from this two day encounter” - specific mention of experiencing each member of the Trinity; joy (mentioned three times) as the dominant affection and sweetness (mentioned twice). Ambrose traced the experience to the time in which he “began to see spiritual things … upon which followed more desire and endeavours after grace.”(1)
Another example
May 17, 1648. At several times I ran through the duties of watchfulness, self-examination, experiences, meditation, the life of faith; and many a time I felt many sweet stirrings of Christ's Spirit; the Lord Jesus appeared to my soul, gave me the kisses of his mouth, especially in my prayers to, and praises of his Majesty. Surely thou art my Lord, and I will praise thee; Thou art my God, and I will exalt thee. Hallelujah! (2)
Two days later, he writes, summing up the variety of experience he knew,
One felt many strivings, and contrary workings in his spirit; sometimes in prayer ravished, and sometimes heavy; sometimes full of comfort and sometimes exceedingly dejected; sometimes patient and other whiles impatient. O the fickleness and uncertainty of the heart in the course of piety.
Spiritual warfare is a big theme in Puritan writing and it comes out in Ambrose
May 25, 1646. The Lord opened a poor creature's eye, to see in some measure the depths of Satan, and deceitfulness of his own heart: he acted in things doubtful, against the reluctancy of his own conscience before; no question this is sin, because it is not faith.
He also reports how Satan tempted his troubled soul, while sleeping, but
March 6, 1647. The Lord stood by him, put prayers into him though asleep, whereby he overcame the temptation; then awaking, he deeply apprehended Satan's approach and busy temptations: it struck him into fears but praising God for his assistance, he received boldness, and then slept again. (3)
There was plenty of opposition from world and flesh too. On Monday, January 24, 1648, he “had a grieved and troubled heart, by reason of some opposition of wicked people.” Elsewhere he says
many and many a time I have been on the wing, yea, sometimes the opposition has been so strong, that I have wished with David, Oh that I had the wings of a dove, for then I would flee and be at rest. (5)
The Media refers to “our special sins, our Dalilah sins”. Schwanda suggests Ambrose's was pride. “His primary conflict appears to have been his desire to create a better public image than was justified”. In support, two May 1646 entries.
13. One performed indeed a good action, but he exceedingly over prized it; which he found afterwards.
15. This day a poor soul, upon strict examination of his heart, found that formerly he had judged many sinful actions lawful and good and had excused many actions though in themselves sinful. He felt not such a powerful operation of his corruptions before and so through pride and ignorance thought better of himself than he had cause. (6)
Doubt was another temptation.
May 20, 1651. (am) I fell on reading the word, perused the directions and then searched into the common places and uses of my corruptions in nature and practice; of my comforts against the burthens of my daily infirmities; of establishing my heart against the fear of falling away; of directions in my calling; of comforts against outward crosses; of my privileges in Christ above all the wicked in the world: in every of these Christ appeared in some measure suitably to my soul. (pm) I proceeded in the common places and uses of sweet passages that melted my heart; of sensible comforts, and of places hard to be understood: in the first my heart was sweetly melted, in the second cheered; in the conclusion the Lord struck me with a reverence of his majesty and presence, filled my soul with spiritual refreshings, enlarged my heart with praises of him and desires to live unto him who hath given me in this time of love so many visits and kisses of his mouth. Hallelujah! (7)
The day before he had written
19. (am) I exercised the life of faith, when the Lord strengthened me to act faith on several promises, both temporal, spiritual, and eternal; I had then sweet, refreshing, and encouraging impressions on my soul against all the fearful, sinful, and doubtful dreams I had the night or two before dreamed. (pm) I considered the duty of prayer, observed some workings of God's Spirit in my perusing the rules, and afterwards in the practice of this duty. Blessed be God! (8)
Anger was a sin he fell into. He records how one Saturday evening (January 23, 1647) he “fell into exorbitancy of passion”. He was so angry he had heart palpitations. We do not know who he was angry with. His wife? Thankfully, the next day he is able to report that his conscience was troubled “for his rash anger” and that he “reconciled himself to his adversary, and immediately God spake peace to his conscience.”
He also guarded his heart against covetousness. On February 27, 1645, he had a pay rise and prayed “incline my heart unto thy testimonies and not to covetousness.” On March 27, 1647, he confesses himself “a poor soul being mightily ensnared with the world and finding by experience its vanity and vexation, he resolved against it.” He also speaks of being “exceedingly troubled by the cares of this life.” Later that same year, December 11, he writes positively
This day one observed God's goodness, in supplying fully all his temporal wants. This he construed as earnest both of spiritual and eternal favours and mercies in Christ. (9)
Footnotes                                                                          

1. Schwanda 236, 237
2. Schwanda 114 Again the Media pattern
3. Schwanda 121
4. Schwanda 126
5. Fishwick 166
6. Schwanda 128
7. Schwanda 162
8. Ambrose, Media (1657) 89
9. Schwanda 128, 129

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